People tend to think I have loads of clothes and am forever buying new stuff. There is an element of truth to that; I do have loads of clothes but half of my wardrobe is over 10 years old.
I can’t bear to throw some of my favourite more expensive items away meaning that for the last 10 years, I have hoarded so many of my items. When I gained weight, they were pushed out of my mind and I kept saying that they were inspiration and that one day I’d fit in them again. That day has now come and I’m struggling.
You see, I am not longer in my very early 20s. Not only have I aged, but I have three children in tow now. My figure since having my twin daughters, I’m talking changed DRASTICALLY. I have lost my arse and gained a huge wobbly jelly belly. My whole metabolism and shape is something I have had to get used to.
My 8 year old son will in a few years probably find me the most embarrassing person on the planet. Just breathing will probably bug him so I am starting wo wonder what my wardrobe will bring.
I went out on Saturday with a friend for a few drinks and I found myself wanting to cover up head to toe. I really dislike my arms since losing weight. They don’t seemed to have followed the rest of my body and have stayed pretty podgy so sleeveless tops are a huge no no. I struggled to walk in my heels after living in flats purely for comfort and practicalities; who can run after a three year old wearing as 4 inch wedge?!
The thing that spurred me to really think was my cat dress. I own this skater dress from H&M which I have had years and years. It is black with a bold white cat print. I got it out of the wardrobe to wear on the school run and caught sight of myself in the mirror. I looked such a tit. I live in a small town and the slightest thing sets of tittle tattle so me rocking a cat dress is never going to end well.
Am, I really too old for fashion? The problem seems to be, I forget I am now in my 30s as I genuinely still feel so young. I have loved having thr fdeedom to buy clothes again since losing weight and am really enjoying buying clothes (namely from charity shops!) but when do you stop dressing how you want to dress and start acting your age?”