I’m struggling. Since joining Slimming World back in January, I was amazed at my weight loss and in May I hit the three stone loss mark which was something I never in a million years though I would do. But from there? It’s been hard going.
On 24th May I had lost 3 stone 1.5lbs. On 4th October I have lost 3 stone 3 stone 3.5lbs.
Doesn’t seem very much does it? Five months and I’ve been battling backwards and forwards with gaining and losing but I really feel I have hit a wall. At my lowest weigh, I was 1 and a half pounds lighter than I am today but it’s become a real battle to try to get off this last stone. I am now starting to wonder if it is at all possible?
My body has changed massively. Not just from weight loss, but I mean in general. My weight is distributed so differently; previously before having the girls, I had a tiny waist but a big bum. I’ve now got the opposite which is not the ideal! I have a jelly belly which for love nor money is never ever ever going to look like it did pre-twins. I am rally really happy about my weight. Whilst I set this goal of 9 and a half stone as my final target I am starting to think my body just won’t get there. It’s happy sitting around this weight. I am half a pound lighter today than I was when we got married yet I am yearning to lose more? I’m not quite sure why.
I definitely have lost my intense focus. I was 100% committed to the plan but now I realise it’s not possible to do it 24/7. I don’t want to be that person who makes every feel guilty for eating. I want to be able to take my kids out for an afternoon treat and not feel miserable because I had a slice of cake. If I am hormonal and want to eat two bags of crisps – I am going to!
I know this is probably contributing to my relentless five months of gaining and losing but you know what, I’m starting to think that this is me. My body is happy. My body is telling me not to lose anymore. I have recently started trying to get back into swimming and going to the gym in a bid to tone as honestly now it is my tummy that is my problem area along with my bingo wings. I am never going to wear a crop top (you’re welcome) but it would be nice to try to firm up the loose skin left by carrying two large twin babies.
I know I have done so well. My BMI when I started was 29.7 and I felt hideous about myself. I now have a healthy BMI of 22.5 and I feel great. I have more energy and feel healthier, but it’s sometimes too easy to focus on the negatives isn’t it?
Has anyone else found that their body hits a wall and refuses to shift anymore? I’m starting to wonder if it’s time to reassess my final target and listen to my body.