Yesterday started with my desperately trying to scrub bright pink nail varnish out of my sons carpet my daughter had lovingly smeared all over herself and nightdress. This was done whilst I was having to strip a bed as someone had had an accident during the night. Stained carpets and soggy bedsheets – all this before 6.30am never prepares you for a good day does it?
Yesterday – I was an awful Mother.
I shouted too much. I lost my temper too much. I wished I was anywhere but at home. We went out – I got stressed and left way too early. I was an awful Mother.
I spent too much time clock watching and tatting about on my phone. The rain kept us inside and all cooped up,but I had no energy to try to make another adventure after our day out ended at 2pm.
The day stretched out in front of me and was waiting for bedtime. What a pretty crappy thing to do.
Yesterday I was so ungrateful and was not a very nice person. Who wants a grumpy Mommy who is short tempered and just knackered? I feel so guilty. Knowing there’s over a month of the holidays and I am already losing my shizz is a sobering thought.
Yesterday evening, I booked the kids tickets to the cinema. Today we go and today I won’t be such a miserable cow. I will try to make them smile and allow them to enjoy themselves. I’ll get out of my funk and stop being so down on everything.
Today I will get out of bed a more positive person. I will be more patient and this time tomorrow, hopefully I will have undone all the grumbling and rubbish day that I have them on Tuesday. I will once again be the Mommy they want me to be. The one they deserve. We all have bad days. Mine was yesterday. Today won’t be the same. It’s time to get my big girl pants on and man up. Live and let live and bloody smile! There’s a hell of a lot of reasons to; I can think of three not so far away.