Struggling

I’m not going to lie, the school holidays have taken it out of me. With a trip to Disney in the coming months, it’s meant we aren’t going away nor do we have masses of extra cash to be able to spend on days out. My husband has been working away all week too which has been an added pressure of three bored kids.

I have struggled.

I know that with every part of me that I shouldn’t wish the holidays away. I should enjoy and appreciate every moment as with the girls starting nursery every afternoon, our time is going to become more limited with three hours a day to be spent at nursery. But sometimes, it’s easy to say how you should be treasuring it, than actually living it.

In short, my house is an absolute pigsty. Not only that, but so is the garden. The kids constantly moan they’re bored or start bickering and fighting. It’s wearing and hard when you know they’re bored but aren’t able to provide entertainment 24/7. I do try. But sometimes no matter what I do, it’s never good enough. I’ve been reluctant to blog as I feel so negative and who wants to read such miserable updates?

But yesterday I tried to see through the difficult day. My sister came round after she finished work, like she does pretty much every day. She helped tidy up and then we were joined by my Dad who washed up whilst I bathed the girls. I realised how lucky I actually am. Despite feeling a bit down, there are people there on hand to help me out. And whilst it may not seem a lot, when you’re home alone with the kids 24/7 from Sunday evening until Friday tea time, it can be lonely. I crave adult conversation and these short visits allow me to get that.

I realised that when I am having a crap few days, that I have people there who genuinely want to help. I have a pretty awesome support network to rely on and have some lovely friends that are always on the end of a message.

I hate being so negative on the blog and this has been why I’ve been a little quiet. But time to get my head out my arse and enjoy the last few weeks!

B xx

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  1. 19th August 2016 / 12:03 pm

    Oh lovely, hugs to you. I can’t imagine what it must be like having your hubby away all week. But you are an amazing mum and you should never forget that. I am so glad you have a great support network around you and that you were able to ask for some help his week. Hugs Lucy xxxx

  2. 19th August 2016 / 9:00 pm

    Sending love and hugs!
    I find it hard enough and I only have 2 kids and my fella only works 6 hours a day!
    You are doing great….Don’t be so hard on yourself!

  3. Carly Belsey
    20th August 2016 / 5:57 am

    Oh bless, I know exactly how you feel. My partner works around 16 hours a day, 6 days a week and so he is never around really. I have a 9 year old and a 1 year old and trying to do things to keep them both entertained is hard. I feel your pain and it’s good you have people around you so try and stay positive 🙂

  4. Margaret Gallagher
    20th August 2016 / 12:21 pm

    No shame in struggling
    Dies you good to get it out and what better way than on your blog
    Probably feel better already x

  5. Margaret Gallagher
    22nd August 2016 / 9:28 am

    Hope your feeling more positive today
    And life’s a bit kinder to you

  6. Natasha Davies
    22nd August 2016 / 11:14 pm

    I know what you mean totally. I have become physically disabled since the start of this year and we are yet to really get our heads around it so we haven’t been able to go out much, or at all some weeks. It’s so hard keeping them occupied and finding outlets for all their pent up energy!!
    I must say though, wen went to Disneyland Paris last October and it was AMAZING!!! You will have an awesome time and all this struggle will fade into a distant memory!
    Have a brilliant time!! 💞

  7. 23rd August 2016 / 10:01 am

    This is your space lovely and you should say how you feel. We all have the good days as well as a lot of bad days. I’ve been there. I’m not a stay at home mum so I have different struggles, but none is worse than the other, just different. You need somewhere to vent and that’s here. I am glad you have people around you and it’s hard to treasure every moment, just treasure the ones that need to be. Enjoy the time and when she’s at nursery you will appreciate the time when you do spend with her. Big hugs and here if you ever want someone to talk too xx

  8. Bev
    26th August 2016 / 7:32 am

    Aw, hope you’re feeling a bit brighter now! I know I don’t know you but I do read every day and feel like I know you so sending e-hugs.

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