I’m not going to lie, the school holidays have taken it out of me. With a trip to Disney in the coming months, it’s meant we aren’t going away nor do we have masses of extra cash to be able to spend on days out. My husband has been working away all week too which has been an added pressure of three bored kids.
I have struggled.
I know that with every part of me that I shouldn’t wish the holidays away. I should enjoy and appreciate every moment as with the girls starting nursery every afternoon, our time is going to become more limited with three hours a day to be spent at nursery. But sometimes, it’s easy to say how you should be treasuring it, than actually living it.
In short, my house is an absolute pigsty. Not only that, but so is the garden. The kids constantly moan they’re bored or start bickering and fighting. It’s wearing and hard when you know they’re bored but aren’t able to provide entertainment 24/7. I do try. But sometimes no matter what I do, it’s never good enough. I’ve been reluctant to blog as I feel so negative and who wants to read such miserable updates?
But yesterday I tried to see through the difficult day. My sister came round after she finished work, like she does pretty much every day. She helped tidy up and then we were joined by my Dad who washed up whilst I bathed the girls. I realised how lucky I actually am. Despite feeling a bit down, there are people there on hand to help me out. And whilst it may not seem a lot, when you’re home alone with the kids 24/7 from Sunday evening until Friday tea time, it can be lonely. I crave adult conversation and these short visits allow me to get that.
I realised that when I am having a crap few days, that I have people there who genuinely want to help. I have a pretty awesome support network to rely on and have some lovely friends that are always on the end of a message.
I hate being so negative on the blog and this has been why I’ve been a little quiet. But time to get my head out my arse and enjoy the last few weeks!