Getting Your Confidence Back

Since January, I have lost three stone. 42 lbs. Gone. And I feel great.

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I have written previously about how I really let myself go and felt stuck in a rut. You see, I was one of those realllllly annoying people that could eat what I liked and never put on a pound. “It’ll catch up with you one day” someone would say as I was shovelling another burger down my neck. Yeah yeah whatever. Even after having Charlie, within 10 days I was back in my size 10 jeans and not a stretchmark in sight.

Then I had twins.

Not only did my stomach stretch beyond the point of I thought possible (and then some!) but the exhaustion two new little people bring with it meant I was eating crap constantly. The thought of exercising or going anywhere that wasn’t in the car with two newborns? No thanks. It was my idea of hell to be stuck out and about without being able to dash home and when I needed to.
So I got fat.

Yes I used the F word. Don’t be so shocked. It’s true. I was fat. I went up almost four dress sizes and felt hideous. But I used excuse after excuse not to do anything. Finally, in January I started the C25k app and joined Slimming World. And it literally has changed my life.

Corny as hell I know, but it has.

I now ENJOY going shopping again. I don’t have to look for clothes that conceal and hide every inch of my body. I am excited about being able to wear [pretty clothes again which I have always loved. I am embracing my figure again. Sure, it’s never going to look like it did before I had babies. I am riddled with stretchmarks and loose skin. I have cellulite and my tummy wobbles like jelly. I have a huge C-section scar not to mention an unrecognisable bellybutton, but I have lost three stone! And I feel great.

I can’t quite believe how much my weight gain had affected my confidence. I didn’t want to leave the house before. I rarely wore make up, did my hair and just slobbed around. I let myself go beyond belief and I feel so sad I didn’t do something sooner. The thought of the unknown joining a Slimming World class or seeing someone I knew when I was out running, was the easy thing to put the barrier up and keep gaining weight.

I’m not where I want to be as have another stone to lose to feel happy but I am well on my way and my mental health and wellbeing is at an all time high. I’m not being paid or sponsored by anyone to say how great it is. This is just me and my experience. If you’re thinking of starting but the fear is too great? Bash down that door and do it. I really am so grateful as I dread to think how unhappy I would be. Last summer was a real low point as I sweated and was so uncomfortable in the heat as I was determined to cover up. This year I can relax and enjoy the weather.

It really has given me my confidence back. I am looking forward to getting back out there and there’s other things I would like to do; perhaps dye my hair, look into tattoo removal services to get my old tattoo removed, look at dermabrasion to repair my battered skin or just buy a new wardrobe. Who knows!

B xx

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7 Comments

  1. 13th June 2016 / 9:18 am

    Well done you! You have done so well x

  2. 13th June 2016 / 7:46 pm

    This is so good to read, I’m so pleased you’ve got your confidence back. It’s amazing isn’t it when we look back at how much our weight affects things. As you know I’ve still got a lot of weight to lose but already feel miles better than I did pre-SW. You’ll be at target soon enough, good luck with the rest of your journey xx

  3. 15th June 2016 / 12:48 pm

    I’ve let myself go recently am trying to be more healthier after my birthday on Friday. I did slimming world before and lot 6 stone before fall I pregnant with my son so know I can do it.
    I want to wish u lots of luck with the rest of your sw journey and getting to target.

  4. 16th June 2016 / 10:40 am

    Well done you, this is amazing and I too need to lose a further 2 stone but I just currently dont have the motivation to do it x

  5. 24th June 2016 / 7:46 pm

    Well done you have done amazing and you are looking fabulous! I have rejoined slimming world as I want my confidence back too , plus nothing bloody fits me anymore xx

  6. julie perry
    19th November 2016 / 9:15 pm

    I totally relate to this…having lost 9st plus,I have gone from a quiet sheep to an outgoing confident fox,lol. Well done you xx

  7. 24th January 2017 / 10:58 am

    I can relate to this xx i got my confidence back,after losing some weight x

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