When You Don’t Belong

I don’t blog as much as I used to. I vowed this year I wouldn’t take on irrelevant posts and fill my pages with stuff that wasn’t “me” but as the months have ticked by and the posts become fewer and far between, the stats drop and I slip away from social media I wonder how much longer I’m left for the blogging world. 

Dramatic? (Ah go on then, may as well ham it up eh?!) Perhaps. But I struggle to find my place. I don’t have a niche; despite the name I don’t post useful twin blogs where expectant twin parents can flock to – instead I’ll probably traumatise them taking the piss about the craziness of twin life. I have an eclectic mix of topics I post about and are usually complete opposite ends of the spectrum – sarcastic humour and grief. 

I don’t feel like I belong as a blogger. I’m not one to “network” and automate my Twitter feed so it’s an endless stream of link pushing. I also don’t like the whole comment rings, they make me feel uncomfortable. Why would you want to force someone to comment and praise your post or photo, it feels incredibly false. I would rather one person comment off their own back and mean it that twenty who are in it to “scratch your back”

I also am feeling more and more uncomfortable about sharing our life. Not knowing who reads or stalks your Instagram can be somewhat unnerving. The thought that people can screenshot and dissect with friends is really not nice. 

I don’t know where I’m going with this post along with my blog itself. It’s a weird one as I know I would miss it if it’s gone but I no longer feel like I fit in. Everyone with oodles of  ideas and months of post scheduled whereas I’m struggling to write one. I felt like this before Christmas and four months down the line I’m still the same. My blog gave me a purpose but it has done this less and less. Maybe I have outgrown it all? Who knows. If I don’t know myself then why am I even writing this?!

B xx

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  1. 8th April 2016 / 7:01 am

    I for one love your blog and I am pretty sure I am not alone in saying that either. I don’t have a ‘niche’ either , I like blogs that don’t the best as you never know what you will read. I hope you don’t give up blogging as I would miss you but I totally understand how you feel as I have been feeling similar lately. I worry who will see what I write at times that’s why I don’t share loads of photos of the children. I also feel like I don’t fit in at times and just can’t be bothered to sit and write. Can’t wait to see you in a few weeks Mrs xx

  2. 8th April 2016 / 8:22 pm

    I love your blog too….I have noticed you haven’t been blogging as much.
    I don’t really have any words of wisdom or advice but I hope you don’t give up…
    Sending hugs x

  3. 8th April 2016 / 9:53 pm

    Love you Beth. Always here if you wanna chat and so, so looking forward to seeing your face again! x

  4. 14th April 2016 / 8:35 pm

    Ah Beth I kind of know how you feel. My blog is not niche either & I always worry there are just too many parenting blogs & I’ve missed the boat. I love the creativity but hate the promotion but you need to get noticed. I don’t think I’ve completely gained a little support group & it can be lonely. I actually have a draft blog post about this very thing. I love your writing. Maybe see how you feel by the summer. X Lifeinthemumslane

  5. 15th April 2016 / 12:18 pm

    Blogging’s a funny old thing. I started off back in 2012, writing about the kids. As they got older, I began to feel more uncomfortable doing that, which is why I’ve now switched to family travel. Sometimes you just need to cast around a bit to find out what you love writing about, and what suits you at the time. I love your blog though, don’t give up!