I’ll be straight with you – I have been struggling to blog recently. The ideas, words, thoughts – they’re all there, but when it comes to transferring them here – I hit a wall. The passion doesn’t pour out of my fingertips and words fill the screen in front of me; then a quick spell check and it’s good to go I am that kind of blogger. I don’t agonise over the preened presentation or crop the crap out of my images – I write whatever I need to at that time. But lately, I have wanted to share less and keep more to me. I feel like I’m repeating myself or repeating what has already been said thousands of times before. And I’ve had my confidence knocked. My ability to blog has made me want to open up the laptop and tap out a post even less. I feel shaken and like I’ve lost my voice.
So what to do. I don’t want to put myself under a cloak of silence but when you write a few lines and find yourself unable to express what you mean, share the thoughts spinning in your head.
Many people probably wouldn’t publish a post like this for fear of knocking the shine off their brand or that someone may want to work with them less. I admire people who are complete and utter blog workhorses but a part of me feels sorry for them that they have to flog themselves sometimes for inspiration and blog fodder.
See even now, I am struggling to start/finish this post! The days of reems of scheduled posts are a distant cry as I can’t muster one simple post to publish tomorrow. I don’t want to lose my voice, lose the community but I don’t quite know where I sit. I don’t really have a niche; my blog name has the obvious twin tone to it, but in all honesty it too can make me feel guilty. When I read comments or get emails about “me and my twins” NO! I have three children and I feel guilty that sometimes Charlie being at school gets lost in my instagram world and the twin posts that most visitors seek out when typing in TWIN-derelmo. I would hate any of them to think I favour one over the other.
I digress, and ramble. This is what I worry about and what most of the draft posts sitting on the computer do. I am losing my voice but I don’t know what remedy there is to bring it back to life.