The Power Of A Nail Varnish!

Yesterday I painted my nails. A pretty mundane task that takes a few minutes but those few minutes after they had dried I looked down – wow I have painted nails I thought. No I hadn’t been struck by baby brain and instantly forgotten but as I looked down at the uneven wobbly paint job I realised that I hadn’t painted my nails literally for years. I mean what’s the point when you’re constantly cleaning, changing bums, wiping up and bathin children. They chip straight way then you never have time to take off the chipped mess but looking down at my Barbie hot pink smudged nails I felt like the old me.

I used to be a tad obsessed with my nails. Every few weeks I’d be in the nail salon choosing a new outrageous colour to brighten up my stubby fingers. It was my thing and made me feel good when I had lovely nails. And yesterday I felt a little bit glam. As I type this after chopping tea, bathing babies, scrubbing the highchairs from mushed in chilli con carne and then mopping up sick (get well soon Charlie!) they already look rough round the edges but looking at them as I tap away on the keyboard they make me feel happy.

It’s not a major sacrifice in the grand scheme of things  you forfeit when you become a parent but I feel like I really have gone to rack and ruin. I couldn’t find my hairbrush in the haze of the school run so just tied it up and went out. If my jeans have a bit of food on, I’ll just grab a baby wipe and be on my way; how have I let myself go so much and been totally Ok with it?

My weight is a crazy issue. I am now two stone heavier than when I got married. TWO STONE. My daughters will be 2 in June so you cannot say it’s baby weight any more. My wardrobe has become full of items that hide all my lumps and bumps, everything must hang in an unclingy manner otherwise there’s no chance it will be aired. I live in leggings and my shoes all have to be flat with no hint of a heel because well what mom wears high heels for more than 10 minutes?! How did I get here. I know I’m getting older and three kids under my belt but I’m not even 30 and I feel like an old frump. I really want to get back to looking after myself and more importantly feeling good about myself. I really feel like I’m stuck in a  rut and am so negative lately (as you may have guessed from recent posts) but it’s time to dust myself off and start taking a bit of pride and realise it’s OK to spend a bit of time on myself. I’m not ready for the scrap heap just yet!

B xx

 

Not a great job – but made me feel great!

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  1. 13th March 2015 / 6:58 am

    I’m glad doing your nails has sparked something off, even if the paint job was a bit rough around the edges 🙂 good luck with breaking the negative cycle, so difficult but so essential. Hugs xx

  2. 13th March 2015 / 10:06 am

    I can totally appreciate this post, I feel the same, and I am in a uniform of baggy jeans and tops that don’t fit for most of the time. I feel old and frumpy, though i am 30 this year (argh I feel old when I write that) I feel like part of me is gone, the crazy pink haired pierced part of me. I had to take my last two piercings out – my two tongue piercings -recently and it was really upsetting for me (like i was losing some part of myself) sometimes I feel like I am not Jenni but mummy, which don’t get me wrong is lovely but sometimes I wish I had the time (and energy) to paint my nails, and pick out a nice outfit (or buy one) which makes me feel nice about myself and my new stretchmark covered body
    You have inspired me to take a bit of me time this weekend, and maybe even paint my stumpy bitten nails a funky colour, so thank you! I hope you get some me-time this weekend.
    Totally love the nail varnish colour!

  3. 13th March 2015 / 12:19 pm

    I can relate to that feeling, it took a while for me to realise I felt like that, then I started taking care of myself again and feel much better. It is ok to have some ‘me time’ it is good for the children too as you will feel better. Nail painting is a good start. Take care x #WoTW

  4. 13th March 2015 / 2:03 pm

    Oh, I do like to have pretty nails, too, but like you it’s once in a blue moon for all of the reasons you’ve listed there. I do always have my toe nails painted, though, always – that one’s essential to me! It’s very easy to get into a rut like this, so best of luck getting back out and I look forward to seeing plenty more pretty nails pics! Hope Charlie’s feeling better soon x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

  5. 13th March 2015 / 3:31 pm

    Oh! it’s so easy to feel this way when we are in the cycle of caring for everyone else. We forget to be kind to ourselves, but there is a reason why they always remind you to put your safety mask on first when we fly 😉 if you know what I mean! You are important too! My nails didn’t get painted for a long time either but I always painted my toenails too! Your nails look lovely and not a bit smudged!! Take care xx

  6. 13th March 2015 / 5:20 pm

    When I was wee bit younger, I wrote a children’s story book entitled, Magic Cutix. Cutix is a nail varnish brand but that is what we call naiul varnish in my country. Having your nails done whether professionally or by yourself is just magical as it will automatically uplift your spirit =)

    This reminds me of that story. A lovely post to read =) #wotw

  7. 13th March 2015 / 8:47 pm

    Good for you! You need to do something for yourself every now and again! They look really pretty! I hope you manage to get out of the rut and feel better about yourself soon x

  8. Abigail Cullen
    14th March 2015 / 1:31 pm

    Nice, love the colour, certainly does make you feel better when you look at your fingers nails and see a nice colour looking right up at you to brighten up your day and it only takes a few minutes of your time too.

  9. 14th March 2015 / 6:27 pm

    I’m the same I hardly ever do my nails, but when I do it feels great! Get well soon Charlie x

  10. 14th March 2015 / 7:51 pm

    I miss painting my nails. It was my thing too, I LOVED my nails when I was pregnant they were so strong so stayed nice and long. I really like the colour 🙂 hope you’re not stuck in the negative rut for much longer xxxx

  11. 15th March 2015 / 2:00 pm

    Love that colour! They look lovely,mohel you manage to spend some time in yourself, I’ve been trying since Christmas and it really is one of the only things keeping me sane!

    #wotw xx

  12. 15th March 2015 / 9:33 pm

    I once had a total breakdown during a busy stressful period, and cried to my husband – ‘All I want to do is paint my toenails!’ He thought I’d gone mad, I in turn thought I had gone mad. But your post has just shown me that I hadn’t! haha. I totally get this. A bit of pampering goes a long way.
    I absolutely love your blog too – so pretty xx #wotw

  13. 16th March 2015 / 7:48 pm

    It is amazing how painting your nails can brighten your mood! x

  14. 20th March 2015 / 9:59 am

    How lovely that you were able to stop and spend some time appreciating yourself-so important.

  15. Farmerswifeandmummy
    9th January 2016 / 10:48 am

    I took nail varnish into hospital after having my second child. All I can say to that is ha ha ha ha. Needless to say it wasn’t used.
    It does make me feel better though even when my body doesn’t look nice my nails usually do 🙂 I just don’t have time to match it with my outfits any more.