As we hurtle towards the girls third birthday which is just over a week away, I am finding myself become more aware than ever that we are reaching the end of so many “milestones”and it fills me with such sadness.
Nursery starts in September and with it there comes a sense of expectation and the girls will suddenly seem so much more grown up all whilst gaining their independence. They will create their own little worlds where I am no longer at the core. It’s incredibly selfish to think that way I know but the thought of them going off doesn’t seem real. They don’t seem big enough! Nursery is going to bring such huge changes and after cracking potty training, there really aren’t many things left that are synonymous with them being small babies anymore.
The last few times we have been shopping we have someone managed to find the ONLY double trolley the supermarket has. Seriously the amount of times when it wasn’t viable for them to walk around like they can now, that we couldn’t find it was unreal. Many a time I’ve had to go back home without being able to shop because of this flipping trolley!
As we have managed to use it, it’s really started to hit me that actually they won’t be able to use it much longer anyway. It is always such a lovely thing to have them sat together in a shopping trolley and having them that close together for a long period facing me doesn’t happen very often as one is always off. It always felt like such an achievement when they were small to do a food shop that I always associate the supermarket trolley as a mini Mom victory and seeing them these last few times makes me sad how fast they have grown.
With no more babies on our agenda, whilst it’s been the most amazing thing to be a twin parent, it also feels rushed. Instead of sending my second born off to school whilst clinging on to baby three it all happens at once. Those milestones are amplified and the come down is twice as hard. A house of noise from two little voices will soon vanish and the echoing silence will ring out.
September please stay away for as long as possible. I need to soak up these last few months and get to grips with the ever changing dynamics in our household.